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Monday, November 14, 2011

Painting ....

We are all artist of our own life ....

Our parents provide us with the drawing material, some people has more some people has less.....

Friends and love ones provide us with ideals ... how your drawing should be like ...

End of the day is up to you how you going to paint you own life ...

Posted at 11/14/2011 10:53:11 pm by LWL
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Sunday, October 30, 2011

What is love ??

If love is base just on feeling, than will it die off ? Buy lots of expensive gifts that your girlfriend wants is that love or treating her nice and buy what she needs is love ?

I believe that if love is just base on feeling ... it will die off one day or u will fall in love with many others !!! I seen many example of love die off and the party falls for another party and broke of with thier partners and regerted. In love there must be a commitment and responsibility in it. Therefore is good to know the character of your partners.

My favourite line recently" would like a guy who shares the heart with many others or give u all his heart ? What if the whole heart is less than part of the heart ?"

Seriously sometimes treating someone nice or too nice they get the wrong intention, i also dont know. Good intention might turn bad .... Example you give way for a gal to the left of the escalator end up u too close to her she stare at u ...

My friend always tell me first impression is very important, change my dressing . Some ppl says be yourself when you go out with gals ... Hmm contradict~! i know la dressing is a small thing. Once some one ask me why i dont wear shirt when during weekends? Firstly I afarid too hot, secondly is that I wearing shirt for work and i just want to dress down and wear LKK ~!! I know excuse excuse ... see that why u no gf !!

Major problem now is MONEY ~!!! Lets say if i got gf and she say she want to settle down NOW ~!! I cant.... I am earning not enough to give my partner a good lifestyle and still can save up for marriage. Ya i know not all gals like that, but i dont want my gf to suffer also ....

I am have the old traditional thinking that the guy should bring the bread home and gal whole feed the kids.... BUT is it possible in the current society ? A lot people divorce is because of financial issues too ...

Posted at 10/30/2011 1:16:30 am by LWL
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Wednesday, August 17, 2011

My wORld

From young my world is a very dull world .... I always believe I must work hard and fill it with colour ... therefore I have very high expectation for myself. I try to make it colourful....

When young i always love to hang around with my grandparents, uncle and cousin ... today i realized i trying to borrow thier family happiness to fill my world with colour ... I plan my route ... which a very tradition way, study , work hard earn money and have happy family plus taking care of my dad... I am very emotional cause when i was young i lost someone who everyone think is a "pest" but is a treasure.... I lost my mum... thats why treasure everyone near me inculding my friends..... *thats why my friends say jokingly no worth be my friend cause i have too many friends* In a all guys family i dont know how to chase girl or sweet talk . No advise from anyone ....

So when studying i told myself i will not have a relationship cause i want to excel... i choose accounts rather than design cause i think i need more pratical and more money...

Recent years ..... dreams and hope burst ~!! First dad did not want me ... Job sucks ... Gal I love most break my up ~! I guess i do not know how to love .... but i am sure i can care for her and wont hurt her ....

I have learn alot recent years .. i guess i was to naive, childish and gullible leaving in my fairy tale land ....the world is not as beautiful as you think ~!!

Time to grow up wei long time to grow up ... you need to strong to carry on the rest of your journey ~!!!

Posted at 8/17/2011 11:49:58 pm by LWL
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Sunday, June 19, 2011

Egg in the basket ....

Which would you choose ... putting all egg in one basket or put all egg in different basket ?

If you put all egg in one basket ... u got it the repayment will be very great .....

If you put all egg in different basket your risk is lower.... SO ?? Which will you choose ?

For me i always put all my egg in one basket ... and the risk is always high and always get bad damages....

If i want to put all my egg is different basket i do not have enough resources to do that ....

So begger can choose ... u want to choose dont be a begger ~!!!!

Posted at 6/19/2011 12:29:59 am by LWL
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Wednesday, May 18, 2011

P.S I am Sorry

I think I have disappointed ppl who I love ....

Once my uncle told me " You are like a crystal ball to us ... we polish you is hope you shine one day. "

I have very high expectation of myself ... everything ok expect for looks. Planning my life till after degree and work... BUT now I off tracked ...

I hate drinking and smoking but now ... I smoke and drink . ..

I guess when they see me like this they are sad ... but seriously I dont know what i can do ...

Ppl think that i am strong maybe I am not cause .... things that happen around me might be big impact to you but is small to me ... cause I experince more than you all.....

Recently the turning point of my life was the starting of my 3rd year poly .

That wast the biggest imapct of my life... I thought I can get over it but the answer is no... everytime ppl talk about him or I see him the hate inside me appear.... ppl say I nv try forgiving him.. they are really wrong ~! I called him sometimes but cant talk much cause the hate appear everything start to appear in my mind.

Maybe I am just running away from the problem and not solve it.

Now I really feel a burdent to my uncle and thier family I try to make them happy and even is doing things that I dont like I just shut my mouth and do .

I am writing this is just to have an outlet to say my emotion and keep in here....no cause I want to suicide or what....

Now I will try to make myself back to track ... hope I wont have another big blow cause seriously i think i will break down,

Thankful that I have really supportive friends around me but i dont like to add on to thier burden... I am just emotional ~!

Which is good and bad cause I feel for ppl ...

Posted at 5/18/2011 10:41:05 pm by LWL
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Saturday, April 16, 2011

dont get it ....

Guess where am I ??? MRT ....feeling bored and trying to blog using mobile The recent news about the 14 years old Thai who fall on to the track and lost her leg ... sad for her cause so young and got long way to go . But seeing her photo she is smiling seems she very positive .... Some ppl cause of stress BGR relationship want to die .... some ppl who got terminal disease want to live but they cant .... My granny everyday eat and slp on the bed and don't know is it night or day .... overtime she ask me what time and is morning or night .... everyday she can't eat much ....she wanted to live longer o carry great grandchild but now she tell me she just want to die ...but is not up to her .... I don't get it why some ppl just can't live life as it is ?? And try to be strong ?? I am not in their shoes maybe I don't know ... but ending ur live is very selfish act cause ur love ones will be sad and follow u too .... treasure ur love ones and urself .....

Posted at 4/16/2011 10:32:58 pm by LWL
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Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Life...

Do you believe that your life is already plan and path by God ??

I did not believe last time ... I only know is me myself who did not try hard thats why....

I dont really have a religion ... I just told myself that do things that wont go againt your "Liang Xin" and dont do what you dont want people do to you.

Sometimes i stress myself to hard expect too much from myself ... until now i really break down ... I plan my life what to study what to do .. everything ... and now i am lost and tired ....

I Just need a good break and a shoulder that i can support on ... and of course support the person too. Just want to have some sweet time ... things that i can look forward for .....

Now my life is like no goal nothing to look forward but just pay day ... :(

Posted at 4/12/2011 11:18:26 pm by LWL
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Saturday, April 02, 2011

What's love ??

I know what's love ....
"Love is just a feeling that can't be explain. "

But what's is real love ? true love ?
Is it unconditional love ? But is it pratical ??

Loving someone does not mean the person will or can execpt u ....

So is it better to be love or to love ?
Loving someone who dont love you ... tired...
Loved by someone you don't love .... irriating ....

Is really difficult to find some one who love you and u love that person too.

Is there really fate and destiny?

I think i am too emotional and scary at times... till i am scared of myself ~! Friends close to me cause i am emotional .. i feel for them care for them.... they might leave me one day cause of it too ....

When comes to love i always use my mind to control .. cause i looking for long term and practical love ... but this time my emotinal took over the control panel and my mind can control it SHIT ~!

"Just want to love someone simply"

Posted at 4/2/2011 3:13:49 pm by LWL
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Sunday, December 12, 2010

I am really sorry

I am really sorry for driving so confidently and skid the car and causing both of you terrified......

Seriously, i dont feel good and i dont take it as a joke . BUT i was glad that i reacted correctly and was a near miss .

Somtimes it feels really good that u know someone at home is waiting for you or your phone call. Is good that when u drunk someone will take care of you.... Is good that someone will listen to ur sadness and happiness....

I know get a gf ... I want to and trying... Seems Mr Cupid is not doing his job well. And i am a blow agverage guy ... Gals are not blind and standard of living is getting higher of cause expectation will get higher too ...

What to do ? just wait gor some one who really know how to apperciate me ... i wont be really a good bf but i promise i will try my best ...

I will not devalue myself anymore for gals who dun apperciate me or maybe i am too caring and irraitaing bah ...

Posted at 12/12/2010 1:11:47 am by LWL
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Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Is it consider Cheating?

Current my boss had talk to me about my confrimation and increament. BUT have not let me sign my contract.

and i want to leave .... people are asking me to just take the increament and act blur take notice period same as probation casue i have not sign any contract.

My logic is that .... I dont want cause i feel very bad ... Haiz HOW ?~

Posted at 3/30/2010 11:44:53 pm by LWL
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